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The sickness that never ends.

It's been a long time running.
School, work, music, my stupid art..All of it I would chuck away just to have a moment of complete ignorance.
It would be beautiful to be unaware of the nastiness. Unaware of the seething hatred I have for myself.

"HAha! Get over it you weakling!"

Fuck you too, honey.

I don't want to eat.
I don't want to eat.
I don't want to eat.

Every single fucking time I take a bite, or eat a meal, or dream of something delicious-
The rotting stench of guilt robs me of my senses.
I feel sick after every bite...But I'm hungry...I need to eat something!
And every day I pay for it.

I don't want to look
Into another mirror-
Not again.

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